Exposed...

Where do I even begin? It has been 3 months or so since I sat down to blog! So I figured I would getback at it and put it all out there! So what's new you ask? 1. I finished WLC in April! Promotion coming soon! 2. Briahna is now officially a first grader and will be 6 next week! 3. I am so close to purchasing my first home; a fixer upper to make my very own! 4. I am almost 14 weeks pregnant with baby #2! 5. I am officially a single mom; it's a bittersweet feeling but I wouldn't trade it for anything! I have an awesome family supporting me! 6. My sister just turned 24 and moved to s. Korea! Miss her! Sometimes I debate about sharing certain info but I figured if I put it out there, I can avoid the annoying questions! One thing I have to say is morning sickness and this first trimester can eat it! I spent the last 6 weeks so terribly sick and tired. I even ruptured an eardrum and missed several days of work and important events! I am hoping the second trimester treats me well,I would like to get back to the gym! Oh I've also started showing!! That also means my clothes don't fit!its kind of devastating actually :( maternity clothes here I come! You know what's annoying? Being ignored, if someone takes the time out of their day to connect with you,have the courtesy to respond! Seriously! Technology makes it so east to stay connected...and you know that most people are on their phones all dang day anyways... sheesh! Just saying... What else can I vent about? I think that's enough for tonight...I'm sure this post will be a bit surprising for some, but hey, it is what I've been dealt and I'm gonna roll with it! Have a good week and enjoy yourselves all you silly people! Ps..quick shoutout to my dad! Happy fathers day man! Thanks for being amazing and keeping me sane and being the best tramps bri will have!

The hardest job in the world...

...is being a mother. It gets even harder when one becomes a single mother.

Prior to getting married, I played the single mother part for a short 6 months. For some reason, it wasn't near as hard as it is now. At that time, I was in the military, going to school, and working full time. You would think that would be harder! But it turns out, that this time around, it is much harder and doesn't appear to get any easier in the near future! Why does it seem so hard right now? B and I are still getting into a routine with our new life back in Minnesota. She is acting out due to a major change in her life. Living with 2 grandparents whom absolutely adore her, doesn't make it much easier! They are probably the best Nana and Grandpa any little kiddo could ask for! So when she misbehaves, who is left to be the bad guy? Yup, you guessed it, this mom right here! She has no problem stomping her feet, raising her voice, or throwing her toys when mom says "NO." When you're the boss (single mom), it can be hard to reign in that little monster!  Love her more than words could express, but daaaaang, this little girl will fight and fight until the bitter end! Everyday it is just her and I, she depends soley on me to care for her! And believe me, many days it can be quite overwhelming! I guess this is where I find the book, "single parenting for dummies." I need some insight on this, ASAP!

Tomorrow is a better day! Let's hope we can have a productive one, leaving all the hard stuff for another day. They always say, "what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger," I think I am strong enough for a while a few days! Maybe next week I'll be ready to take on some more! :p

It could always be harder. My favorite favorite girl, JB, whom I met in Germany, is a single mom to 4, yes, 4 amazing kids! She definitely struggles with the same as I do, plus 300 times more! She truely is an amazing single mom, who does absolutely everything for those kids! I can only imagine what it would be like! She is a strong woman, who deserves nothing but the best! :) Miss you! Keep being the best mother to those kids, they adore you!