Friday, December 28, 2012


So I hate when I have too much free time! Who says that? Well, I do, simply for the fact that I hate having all that time to think...think and think...and then over-think some more! I tend to have a high level of anxiety and jump to crazy conclusions like its going out of style. I read too much..or too certain situations which is probably why I am big giant loser! I think my thought process is so different from others that when people do something that doesn't sit right with me, I get uber upset. And then I want to confront them, cuz how else will they know they are being total D-bags! Maybe I'm overly sensitive or just wayyy to precautious, either way, its getting me no where in my social life! What am I doing wrong? It's like that book "is everyone hanging out without me." How do I just go with the flow and be unlosery!? And being a loner these days probably doesn't help my issue! On the bright side, I totally love the fact that I no longer feel the need to fit into the 'cool' crowd. We just weren't meant to be, ha! I like weirdos and unique-ish people who aren't D-baggy! So I'm typing this on my phone and lost track of my intended purpose of this post, so I hope it was entertainment for those who do read this! Have a fab New year and do better! Peace! \/

Thursday, December 27, 2012

back at it...

So I'm back at may have possibly slowed down a I can hope, right? Just got home from a long holiday vacation! By just got home, I mean rolled in the driveway at 2am and it is now 5:53 and I am wide awake! Those 5 hr energy shots last wayyyyyyyy longer than 5 hrs! Especially when you don't drink caffeine! Blah! Anyways, since I last shared, so much has happened! Not sure where to I'm just going to focus on one thing. Myself. Perhaps it is selfish, but I am in the process of being the best "me" possible. How am I doing this you ask? I have slowly learned, researched, and executed possible strAtegies for such a goal. It has been one the hardest and most rewarding things I have attempted! It sounds silly I know, but it is challenging to "do better" when sometimes all you want to do is "get by." Do better-- 1. Smile. It not only boosts your mood instAntly, but It's also contagious. 2. Like what you see, if not, change it. 3. Go above and beyond, even for those who may not return the favor. 4. Be selfish once in a while, put your needs first. 5. Take a mental health day before you burn out. By simply doing better in some way or another, there is no doubt in my mind that you will feel a sense of accomplishment and happiness. --no one is youer than you.