...is being a mother. It gets even harder when one becomes a single mother.
Prior to getting married, I played the single mother part for a short 6 months. For some reason, it wasn't near as hard as it is now. At that time, I was in the military, going to school, and working full time. You would think that would be harder! But it turns out, that this time around, it is much harder and doesn't appear to get any easier in the near future! Why does it seem so hard right now? B and I are still getting into a routine with our new life back in Minnesota. She is acting out due to a major change in her life. Living with 2 grandparents whom absolutely adore her, doesn't make it much easier! They are probably the best Nana and Grandpa any little kiddo could ask for! So when she misbehaves, who is left to be the bad guy? Yup, you guessed it, this mom right here! She has no problem stomping her feet, raising her voice, or throwing her toys when mom says "NO." When you're the boss (single mom), it can be hard to reign in that little monster! Love her more than words could express, but daaaaang, this little girl will fight and fight until the bitter end! Everyday it is just her and I, she depends soley on me to care for her! And believe me, many days it can be quite overwhelming! I guess this is where I find the book, "single parenting for dummies." I need some insight on this, ASAP!
Tomorrow is a better day! Let's hope we can have a productive one, leaving all the hard stuff for another day. They always say, "what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger," I think I am strong enough for a while a few days! Maybe next week I'll be ready to take on some more! :p
It could always be harder. My favorite favorite girl, JB, whom I met in Germany, is a single mom to 4, yes, 4 amazing kids! She definitely struggles with the same as I do, plus 300 times more! She truely is an amazing single mom, who does absolutely everything for those kids! I can only imagine what it would be like! She is a strong woman, who deserves nothing but the best! :) Miss you! Keep being the best mother to those kids, they adore you!