On the plus side...

So I've had some venting posts recently and thought I'd change that and put up something happy!

Yesterday the weather was gorgeous and we had absolutely no plans...I didn't want to sit inside all day so we made a quick trip to get a little inflatable pool. We filled it up, 4 totes of water and 8 hot hot gallons of water made it perfect to play in. I definitely have water babies! ;)

I layed out my gigantic towel blanket with some toys, tunes, and ice cold water and just watched my kids play...they amaze me.

Put down your damn phone...for real tho...

Or pick it up...I have a love hate relationship with people and phones. Seriously, its annoying! So so annoying!

The hate: if your with someone, anyone, and they are trying to like have a conversation with you, put your phone down. ... what it so damn important that you need to look at now? It says a lot about you if you can't have a conversation face to face cuz you're too worried about your phone. And snap chat, don't even get me started...

And if someone does connect with you via text, at least respond. Not necessarily then and there, but make an effort at some point.

I used to be on my phone a lot more until I realized that I love human interaction way more. How can you have a meaningful conversation or relationship with someone via phone? Not possible.

The love: I do love getting random texts and calls from family and friends who are far away. I love to talk on the phone (when im in the car).

But mostly, I hate it. And unfortunately, we live in a generation who knows nothing different. I miss flip phones and the days before smartphones.

Keep your head up and stop missing life!

My Friday night...

Seriously the best night for a fire! We went over to my parents place for dinner and a fire to make up for Tuesday (bri ended up being sick on her bday). It was fun for her, we played Life, had a yummy dinner, played ladderball, sat by the fire, and both kids got a ride on the lawnmower! For the first time in a while, I just relaxed in the lounger! It was nice. I Miss these summer nights...

As I lay here...

My mind is racing! Racing with thoughts across the board... I should be sleeping, wait, I need to be sleeping! But I'm not, I'm wide awake...constantly checking both kids making sure they are okay! Linc is still struggling with respiratory problems and bri came down with a 102 fever tonight. Does it ever end? Sheesh!

To be continued....

I'm back. I was able to sneak in another hour of sleep, but to do so, had to move to the couch with Linc to get him comfortable. Earlier he napped there for 3 hours....needless to say, I was hoping he'd do the same. But I'll take one hour over nothing!

... and now it's morning. Did I even sleep? Ugh! I'm so over this...it breaks my heart when my kids are sick!

I'm beginning to resent a few things...unfortunately I don't have a choice but to be a full time single mom with very little help aside from my close family. It is me who doesn't sleep, it is me who has to risk my job because I have to stay home from work, it is me who has to survive solely on myself. So dont 'you' dare compare your struggles to mine. We are not in the same boat and I'm in this alone because of you.

I know I have support, but at times it would be helpful to have someone else take the nightly duties or watch my babies so I can get to work or take care of necessities or simply to share the good times with. I'm feeling mighty bitter today.

End rant.

She's growing up so fast

Happy 7th birthday to my beautiful daughter! I am so proud to be her mom! She is truly an amazing little girl with a heart of gold! And a very good big sister to her brother! I can't believe how lucky I am to call her mine! Love her to pieces!