Weight Issues

I'm pretty sure I feel like the wOrst mom ever! I took baby Linc in for his 10 day check up...turns out he's lost weight :( he weighed 7 lb 10 oz today. He should have been back up to his birth weight of 8 lb 6 oz.

I questioned how that was possible as I thought I was doing everything right. It appears to be that Linc struggles to have a strong latch (suck) and may not have been getting enough milk. He sure nursed for a long time and has had plenty of wet diapers...but still wasnt enough. Dr also thinks that his congestion may be to blame. He's got a bit of a breathing issue due to still being so congested fron birth. And boy let me tell you, using the nose sucker is not pleasant nor has it been very helpful...


Anyways I'm now to feed Linc every two hours or less to help him gain 4oz by Friday.

Naturally I've blamed myself for this, even though I had no idea. I held back tears all day, trying to remain strong and that I at least look like I got this...

I hope my sweet boy begins to thrive better and puts on weight! I need him to be healthy!

So on this NYE, I'm home with my two favorite little people, and am truly blesses! Be safe my friends! May 2014 be filled with plenty of peace and love!

Nighttime struggles

Well, I've survived Baby Linc's first 10 days..

Tonight was definitely a struggle, I hate not knowing what he wants or needs! I feel like a brand new mom all over again!

I seem to handle the days well, but nights are killing me! Im tired and alone... tonight I cried...and cried! I just wish I felt like I knew what I was doing. The mom of 2 thing isn't easy when you're going at it alone...

I'm sure my hormones are out of sorts as well... maybe it's the baby blues. Either way, I can't afford to be crying or be feeling sad! I have too much going on that I don't need to add that to the mix!

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve! I was invited out by a friend, but I'm going to have to decline. I'm not ready to venture out just yet!

So to all you party goers, have a safe and amazing new years!

Happy Anniversary...kinda???

So I've been off on my days, I had no idea what day it was until I received a message wishing me, "happy anniversary...kinda!"

And then I realized it's December 29th. Today would have been my 6 year wedding anniversary! I definitely didn't forget the date, but had I not received that message, I wouldn't have gave it a thought...

It got me to thinking about the past year and all that has happened! Its been one hell of a ride, this is for sure! I had full intentions of really trying to make my marriage work, but in the end it simply wasn't meant to be. But today, I was able to look back and remember that there good times and bad, and that it was a part of my life that has brought me to where I am today!

Granted this is not where I expected to be, I couldn't imagine it any other way! Like I said, I had high hopes and plans, but changing them was a must if I was going to survive on my own.

So here's to almost 6 years, may the past make us better and not bitter.

Home Sweet Home

So I've been home with my sweet baby boy since Monday! Can I just say that adjusting to having two kiddos is not easy! Not one little bit! I had help for the first few nights, but now I'm on my own! Scaryyyyy!

And I am definitely being tested tonight! I can't get this boy to sleep for the life of me! I'm hoping its just tonight and tomorrow he's back to his usual... well whatever a usual is for a week old baby!

I'm already so in love with this little guy! He makes me smile for no reason! His sister does the same! That being said, I'm struggling to figure out a routine that includes both if them and one that doesn't cause bri to feel left out. Poor girl has been such a good helper and has had to put her wants aside at times. She seems okay but I do know she hates change! So hopefully I can get this whole single mom of two thing figured out soon! :)

Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!