On the plus side...

So I've had some venting posts recently and thought I'd change that and put up something happy!

Yesterday the weather was gorgeous and we had absolutely no plans...I didn't want to sit inside all day so we made a quick trip to get a little inflatable pool. We filled it up, 4 totes of water and 8 hot hot gallons of water made it perfect to play in. I definitely have water babies! ;)

I layed out my gigantic towel blanket with some toys, tunes, and ice cold water and just watched my kids play...they amaze me.

Put down your damn phone...for real tho...

Or pick it up...I have a love hate relationship with people and phones. Seriously, its annoying! So so annoying!

The hate: if your with someone, anyone, and they are trying to like have a conversation with you, put your phone down. ... what it so damn important that you need to look at now? It says a lot about you if you can't have a conversation face to face cuz you're too worried about your phone. And snap chat, don't even get me started...

And if someone does connect with you via text, at least respond. Not necessarily then and there, but make an effort at some point.

I used to be on my phone a lot more until I realized that I love human interaction way more. How can you have a meaningful conversation or relationship with someone via phone? Not possible.

The love: I do love getting random texts and calls from family and friends who are far away. I love to talk on the phone (when im in the car).

But mostly, I hate it. And unfortunately, we live in a generation who knows nothing different. I miss flip phones and the days before smartphones.

Keep your head up and stop missing life!

My Friday night...

Seriously the best night for a fire! We went over to my parents place for dinner and a fire to make up for Tuesday (bri ended up being sick on her bday). It was fun for her, we played Life, had a yummy dinner, played ladderball, sat by the fire, and both kids got a ride on the lawnmower! For the first time in a while, I just relaxed in the lounger! It was nice. I Miss these summer nights...

As I lay here...

My mind is racing! Racing with thoughts across the board... I should be sleeping, wait, I need to be sleeping! But I'm not, I'm wide awake...constantly checking both kids making sure they are okay! Linc is still struggling with respiratory problems and bri came down with a 102 fever tonight. Does it ever end? Sheesh!

To be continued....

I'm back. I was able to sneak in another hour of sleep, but to do so, had to move to the couch with Linc to get him comfortable. Earlier he napped there for 3 hours....needless to say, I was hoping he'd do the same. But I'll take one hour over nothing!

... and now it's morning. Did I even sleep? Ugh! I'm so over this...it breaks my heart when my kids are sick!

I'm beginning to resent a few things...unfortunately I don't have a choice but to be a full time single mom with very little help aside from my close family. It is me who doesn't sleep, it is me who has to risk my job because I have to stay home from work, it is me who has to survive solely on myself. So dont 'you' dare compare your struggles to mine. We are not in the same boat and I'm in this alone because of you.

I know I have support, but at times it would be helpful to have someone else take the nightly duties or watch my babies so I can get to work or take care of necessities or simply to share the good times with. I'm feeling mighty bitter today.

End rant.

She's growing up so fast

Happy 7th birthday to my beautiful daughter! I am so proud to be her mom! She is truly an amazing little girl with a heart of gold! And a very good big sister to her brother! I can't believe how lucky I am to call her mine! Love her to pieces!

I am wrecked...

So my dad would say...

Linc has been terribly under the weather and worked us over. We are all wrecked!

My poor baby has struggled with respiratory problems since he was born. It's been a never ending battle. For the most part, antibiotics have helped. But really, he's been fighting something nearly every other week.

Dr. states its maybe because his nasal passages are so small. I suppose that's possible, but I don't know any other 6 month old that's been sick as much as linc...

I'm taking him in to get a second opinion this week, just to cover my bases. I want to Make sure there are no other underlying causes that we've missed.

I also need my sleeping boy back.... this time around has kept him up every hour throwing himself around and not fading back asleep. It's taken a toll on this momma for sure. I'm so tired!

Please send us some positive healthy vibes so he can feel better soon!

Jenn & Aaron

My dear friend had the perfect day to marry her best friend! Jenn and Aaron finally tied the knot! They had a beautiful ceremony and a reception that was a true Weihr celebration!

So. Busy. I. Can. Hardly. Stand. It.

I really don't mind being busy, but I'd like a happy medium! I have been so busy to the point of being overwhelmed to the max!

I recently accepted a full time position at the clinic that is and will keep me busy. On top of work, I have my two amazing kiddos to tend to! My weekends have been packed with weddings, army, family time, and maintaining my house! I'm spent.

There isn't enough time in the day and I'm only one person! I try to do it all, but have come to the realization that I can't do it alone. That being said, I've had to reach out for help. Ugh, I hate asking for help, but am so thankful for those who've stepped up! It's greatly appreciated, more than you know.

I've decided to reevaluate what I've got going on, trying to make more time for my kids and doing things I enjoy! I can't give up my job or the army, but I've decided to hold off on booking any more makeup jobs for a while. I absolutely love doing it, but at times, its more of a unneeded stress.

I'm still deciding about my relationship status. Its very hard to balance my home life, my professional life, and my love life and dedicate enough quality time to each. I need a healthy balance! As much as I would like to enjoy having a partner and having me time, I really cant sacrifice the little time I do have with my kids.

Oh what do I do? How do I balance it all out?

...the life of a single mom

Happy Father's Day!

My kids are so lucky to have these two guys in their life!

Falling off the bandwagon...

I've tried not to have a million excuses, but here I am, yet again, failing at my fitness and weight loss goals! :( there seriously isn't enough time in a day to get everything accomplished!

I've had nearly no chance to get out running, I can just barely run my two mile army requirement. I really want to run some races,; but having no one to watch the kids or even a jogging stroller, I am out of options some days. :(

For a while, I was doing my short exercises in the evenings, but have been slacking off on those as well. By the time I've finished work, made dinner, spent time with the kids, did chores, and anything else needed to be done, I'm whipped! It's usually 8-9p and by then its bed time for the kids...and myself! I just can't hang...

My eating habits are still pretty healthy, but I'll be honest and say that I've slipped up on that as well. Cookies are truly my weakness!

A plus side: I do go walking at work, usually a mile or two during the day. And I also won a weight loss challenge for the month of May! It is a 6 month challenge, two more months to hopefully win!

Anyways, I am really hoping to lose the rest of this baby weight, even just be at 143 and fit into all my prebaby clothes...and tone up so I can wear my swimsuit and feel comfortable!

No more excuses!

Just sayin'...

Virgo's

Do me a favor: and stop lying, stop being so selfish, and be nice...for no other reason than just because. My faith in humanity fell down the toilet today. Seriously...I hate people some days.