Mistakes

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.

We're in this together...

Can I just brag and say that I have the most amazing family anyone could ever ask for?

I have a unique bond with my parents and sister, and it couldn't be better. They are truly my inspiration and best friends and have helped me get to where I am today.

The other day I was having one of my usual phone conversatoins with my dad, he typically calls to visit when he's driving, which I love! We were talking about life in general and just how we've all struggled and pulled together as a family.

 

I was sharing my concern and the feeling of being terrified for raising two kiddos alone, and I will never forget when he said, "We're in this together." That was exactly what I needed to hear, and it couldn't have come at a better time! (With pregnancy emotions, my due date approaching, and 9 months of waiting for reality, I have been slightly overwhelmed)

He assured me that no matter what happens, we (my family) are all in this together! And it's not just regarding my kiddos, but in all the struggles we've been in. We step up to help each other out in any way we can. We listen to each other, spend time together, and come together as a family when no one else steps up.

--> Last night, I made dinner and my parents came over for dinner and helped me get Baby Linc's room finished and put plastic over the windows (sooo cold). I could tell my dad wasn't feeling the greatest, but he was here, and he helped me until it was done. What a trooper! :)

Love your family, my friends!

When is it my turn?

You know, everyone always says life isn't fair. And I know this more than most. Things go right, wrong, and crazy! And you never really know what you're gonna get, like Forest says...

But really, when is it my turn to have things fair and simple? Everything in my life that has been a struggle wasn't chosen, but i took it like a champ and walked away like a boss...

Today, though, I'd like not to struggle. I'd like to have an easy day, a day without worries, a day where everyone is happy, a day where I can just "be" and everything will be alright...When is it my turn for that?

I don't ever yearn for what others have, but we all want certain things out of life, and I'd say it's okay to want things, such as love, happiness, health, etc...right? So perhaps I am just dealing with my pregnancy emotions today...but I want those things too...and could have really used a good companion to come along this journey with me! I'm so busy making sure everyone else taken care of, which is fine, but today, I just want someone to take care of me...

When will it be my turn?

Oh baby it's cold outside!

Oh baby its cold outside! This morning was -5*!! I can't deal...

Had a rough start to my day... woke up late and showed up an hour late to drill...ay yi yi! But I think at 38 weeks prego, no one was overly upset I was late!
Yes, I said 38 weeks prego! Due in just 12 short days! Hoping baby Linc doesn't come until next weekend! May be a bit selfish, but I have a few days off and need to get some rest in before I'm on 24 hr newborn duty...or should I say dooty!

Had a bit of a scare the other day...it snowed ALL day and was slick as hell... I took a dive in the parking lot after work. I landed on my side I think, but then on the car ride home my lower abdomen was on fire! I made it home and to my dr apt... and thank goodness baby seemed fine! Very active with a strong heart beat! Doc checked me out and definitely said he wasn't going to be coming anytime soon! So my bet is on the 15th! Can't wait to meet MY little boy! :)

Side note: every thing else is going wonderful and my Bri is keeping me busy! So excited for all her holiday events coming up! She simply amazes me every day! Love her!

Also want to send a quick shout out to my mom for doing such an amazing job with bri and watching her while I'm away! Love you!

Stay warm all and enjoy your weekend! :)

Be inspired.

 

Have you ever felt like you've hit rock bottom? I sure have. I used that feeling to pick my ass back up and move forward! It has been the hardest and most rewarding thing I have ever done. I am 27 with a story. A story I don't mind sharing. Granted I won't share it all right now, I will say that if you asked me where I thought I'd be in my adult life, my current life would not have been the answer. Of course no one can really have a set plan without deviating, but I never saw myself here. My life today has evolved from the events that have come about in the last 9 years after highschool. I had intentions of going to college to play hockey, become a doctor, and have lots of money! Who doesn't want money right? But, life is not about money. It's about enjoying it and making the best of it! So I did, I jumped by the seat of my pants, often times getting myself into trouble or doing things I wouldn't normally do...but that only builds character right?

 

So needless to say, I never went on to play hockey after high school, I am clearly not a doctor, and I definitely don't have millions! ;) But what I do have is sooo much better! I had to go through trials and tribulations to get where I am, but I was determined....

 

I believed I could...and I did. I am not yet where I want to be, but I have come so much farther than I once was. I've wanted to blame others for my misfortune, but it's no ones fault but my own. Perhaps I thought I needed someone else to make me happy. I was wrong. Once you are happy with yourself and can truly be content, everything seems at peace and worth while.

 

I kept my head held high, pushed my shame aside, and trudged forward on this journey I'll call my life. Don't get my wrong, things surely aren't perfect, but they are worth while and I am absolutely content with what I have accomplished while rebuilding my new life.

 

My story is no better than anyone else's, as we all fight battles no one knows about. But I want to inspire those who've been at rock bottom, those who have felt worthless, and those who are stuck in a funk. I was there. I felt like things would NEVER get better, I felt like I would feel shitty everyday, I felt like I couldn't heal emotionally. I wanted to run away from my problems instead of face them head on.

 

When I finally did face them, I climbed my ass back up to the top. My story is my own and isn't to be compared to anyone else's. I don't yearn for what other's have. I have worked extremely hard to get where I am and couldn't be prouder. I've done things I never thought I'd have the opportunity to do and did them with confidence. On top of picking myself back up, I trusted my support system (family) to be there for me if I did slip. Having that support system was a driving force to being a better me. And of course, my amazing daughter and soon to be son have driven me to do better for myself and for them. Who knew a child could mean so much to one person, I don't have words to explain how important they are to me. But I want them to know that everything I've done to be better, is from their presence and for their future.

 

So be inspired my friends. Life is not easy, and it's almost easier to give up and mope, but pick your ass up and go! Your future self with thank you!